Check your feelings at the gate

This isnt somewhere to just whine and cry. Check your feelings at the gate with your track buy-in. Get over you shit when you get over the bike, get in your car, whatever. Dont expect someone to just give you anything anymore, that's not how life works. And dont leave me fucking messages on FACEBOOK's Honesty Box. If you dont like me, you hate me, whateverish, just FUCKING SAY IT! Quit being a little bitch.

Another week

Another week of driving, not enough riding. Anyone know where I can find a soft waterproof computer bag? Anyway, as long as the rain holds off it should be 10.20's tomorrow out at byron dragway! My hands are KILLING ME. They're dry and all torn up from work. Maybe I should start using some more hand lotion. Oh, and theres like a week left of class, with next semester picked out and lined up, this should be an interesting 7 months.

lonley

I am. Have been for a while, even when i'm with everyone. Damn, i hate me.

Carlin says...

George Carlin says,
"I Am Your Worst Nightmare. I am a BAD American. I am George Carlin.
I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some mid-level governmental functionary with a bad comb-over who wants to give it away to crack addicts squirting out babies.
I'm not in touch with my feelings and I like it that way, damn it! I think owning a gun doesn't make you a killer. I believe it's called the Boy Scouts for a reason. I don't think being a minority makes you noble or victimized. I believe that if you are selling me a Big Mac, you'd better do it in English.
I don't use the excuse "it's for the children" as a shield for unpopular opinions or actions. I think fireworks should be legal on the 4th of July. I think that being a student doesn't give you any more enlightenment than working at Blockbuster. In fact, if your parents are footing the bill to put your pansy ass through 4-7 years of college, you haven't begun to be enlightened.
I believe everyone has a right to pray to his or her God or gods, just leave the rest of us out of it. This also applies to sexuality. Hillary Clinton is a carpet-munching lesbian.
My heroes are John Wayne, the Simpsons, and whoever canceled Dr. Quinn, Medicine Woman. I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor. I know wrestling is fake and I don't waste my time arguing about it.
I think global warming is a big lie. Where are all those experts now, when I am freezing my ass through a long winter?
I've never owned a slave, or was a slave, I didn't wander forty years in the desert after getting chased out of Egypt, I haven't burned any witches or been persecuted by the Turks and neither have you, so shut-the-#$%!-up already.
I want to know which church is it exactly where the Reverend Jesse Jackson preaches. And where does he get his money. And why is he always part of the problem and not the solution.
I think the cops have every right to shoot your sorry ass if you're running from them. I also think they have the right to pull your ass over if you are breaking the law, regardless of what color you are.
I think if you are too stupid to know how a ballot works, I don't want you deciding who should be running the most powerful nation the world for the next four years.
I hate those bastards standing in the intersections trying to sell me crap or trying to guilt me into making 'donations' to their cause. These people should be targets.
I think if you are in the passing lane, and not passing, your license should be revoked, and you should be forced to ride the bus until you promise to never delay the rest of us again.
I think beef jerky could quite possibly be the perfect food.
I believe that it doesn't take a village to raise a child, it takes two parents.
I think tattoos and piercing are fine if you want them, but please don't pretend they are a political statement. I think Dr. Seuss was a genius.
I'm neither angry nor disenfranchised, no matter how desperately the mainstream media would like the world to believe otherwise.
I believe if she has her lips on your willie, it is sex, and it is sex for both of you. This even applies when you are President of the United States.
If that makes me a BAD American, then yes, I'm a BAD American. If you too are a BAD American please forward this to everyone you know. We need our country back.

Changing of the guards....

I just watched a video in a psychology class that had a clip of the changing of the guards at Arlington National Cemetary's Tomb of the Unknown Soldiers. I was there once, when I was ten. I can remember only a few things about how fascinated I was with the guards. It still has the ability to glaze my eyes when I think about it. These men guard a single tomb with their entirety every day, rain or shine. With no expression, they spare nothign when a child steps over or under the velvet rope, reminding EVERYONE that they are on hallowed ground and respect is not asked for, but required. I can remember driving through Arlington and not completly understanding why, but knowing that this is not a place of celebration. It is also not a place of mourning. It is a land of pride, of respect. Even at ten, I asked very little about why. I think I understood that these men may not have supported what they did, but they did it because it was their job. They took pride in what they did. Now, we have thousands of small white headstones, often with flowers surrounding them, to stop and pay our respects.

I plan to return soon, with nothing but respect to pay. Though I may not have known any of them, they all have a place in my heart and my mind.


And every time I hear twenty-one guns
I know they brought another hero home to us
We're thankful for those thankful for the things we've done
We can rest in peace, 'cause we were the chosen ones
We made it to Arlington, yea, dust to dust
Don't cry for us, we made it to Arlington

If you'd meet me half way

I dont think you have the slightest idea how badly I miss you. Just a single week has driven me crazy not hearing your voice, not seeing your smile. I've been busy, but not busy enough ovbiously. I cant wait for tomorrow.

Colby

Take time to realize

That your warmth is

Crashing down on in

Take time to realize

That I am on your side

didn't I, didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize

What I just realized

That we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

Just realize What I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

If we missed out on each other, now

Take time to realize

Oh oh, I'm on your side

Didn't I, didn't I tell you

Take time to realize

This could all pass you by

Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize

What I just realized

That we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

If you just realize

What I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

If we missed out on each other, but

It's not the same

No it's never the same

If you don't feel it too

If you meet me half way

If you would meet me half way

It could be the same for you

If you just realize

What I just realized

That we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

If you just realize

What I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

If we missed out on each other

If you just realize

What I just realized

That we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

If you just realize

What I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

If we missed out on each other, now

Missed out on each other now

Missed out on each other now

Missed out on each other now

I just love her voice. Not to mention that she's a gorgeous woman. Those lyrics hold a lot of truth sometimes.

This is a good one

http://www.militarytimes.com/multimedia/video/031208_marine_music

This Marine wrote up a great response to the Dixie Chicks "Not ready to back down". I give him a big +1 and all our servicemen and women that fight every day.

Thank you.

life

I hope this is not going to be my life. I'm bored, depressed, and broke. I'm sitting here watching Fight Club, after going to play pool. I really dont want to do this anymore. I need new friends, new job, new things to do. I'm so beyond bored.

stop

Stop clearing your throat, your lil "achue" sneezes, trying to be quiet shit. Go COUGH for crying out loud, or sneeze. It doesnt sound like you're trying to do either.

Realized

I realized tonight that we will never work. You HATE what I do in life. The only thing that you might approve of is the fact that I am going to be a cop. You dont like even watching a video of me riding my motorcycle, how could you live with me doing it every day? I love you, and it kills me to sit next to you and not cuddle up with you and kiss you. Maybe you do love me, but you dont accept everything about me, so, we will never be able to work.

I'm sorry. I love you.

Sheep and Wolves

There are three types of people in this world;sheep, wolves, and sheep dogs. The sheep, the general population. The people that belive that everyone is good, that there is nothing to worry about in this life, that there are no evil people in this world. The wolves are the evil people, those with no remorse, no feelings for their fellow human beings. The wolves willing to and often ready to jump at the chance to hurt others. Then, there are the sheepdogs. The sheepdog is the buffer between the sheep and the wolf. The sheepdog knows there are good people in this world, and knows there are people capable of great, GREAT evil in this world. While the sheep never expect the evil of the wolves, the sheepdog trys to anticipate the wolf, to beat him to his next move. But, while the sheepdog anticipates the wolf, and is capable of the same acts, the sheepdog shares the compassion of the sheep.

It is not a bad thing to be considered a sheep, but realize, that the sheepdog are not the people to be afraid of. Instead, embrace the fact that they are willing to stand ready, to put the wolves in their place.

single

WOAH... for the first time in over 3 years, I'm single. Like completly. I'm no longer dating anyone, no girlfriend, nothing on the horizion. I'm really not sure what to do exactly. Ive never really been the "dating" type. Just always had relationships. I guess starting all over fresh like this will be good. Should give me a chance to figure out what I want in my life.

Just because I bought you a drink...

Doesnt mean you get laid tonight. It's true, oh so true.
But, why do I keep doing this? Maybe I am afraid to be alone, I dont know for sure. I think this time she was right. The more time I spend alone, the more I hate it. I love my time to myself, out working, playing, whatever. But I HATE not having someone to tell me they love me at night, no one to look at me when I walk through the door and smile. Knowing you dont want to be with me anymore, or that you do but you wont let yourself kills me.
You tell me that you love me, or you used to at least, but I doubt it now.

I think this is the start to something completly new. I'm going to be alone for a wihle and hopefully figure out what I want. Figure out what I need.

Last day

A friend asked me last night what I would say on my last day...
now, the more i think about it, I really honestly cant say for sure. I said that I'd tell everyone i care about how i felt about them, go out on my R1, head to the bar for a burger and a beer and just kick back and relax till that day was up. But now, the more I think about it, I dont know that i would actually do that. Instead, I think I'll just stop at the gorcery store and pick up some things for my family, you know, some food, beer, a couple of cards to tell them how much I love them. I'd call my buddies over to give them some of my stuff, while the rest my family can keep, sell, whatever. I like to think I'd try to write down as much as I can remember of this life so someone some day could tell my story. And I'd defiently be making a "donation" to a bank or two, and letting a few people know that if they wanted to they could make that withdraw when they were ready. Or, maybe just see if they wanted direct deposit...lol. At any rate, I hope I dont see that day anytime soon, but if I do, I'll be prepared, just give me the heads up would ya?

my first...

Well, I guess this is my first post here. I'm sick and tired of this shit. We get such a good thing going, then you leave and it's like I've managed to fuck everything up. I apologize for the foul language, but I reall am sick of this. I dont know what I did or said, or what someone else did to put you in a bad mood, but I'm doin my best to make it better. I know you said you love me a lot more than you show and you want to show it. Well, you better start showing it, because too little too late is what ruined my last relationship and I dont want that to happen again. If things dont start changing I'm going to leave. I know you keep saying you'll die with out me, or kill yourself or whatever, but this shit HAS to stop, or we are going to stop. I've done my part, now do yours or I'm out.

I try to do my best every day, all I ask is you do the same.